Sometimes life just doesn't go as planned. Through out my life I have had to re-live again and again those words more often than any person really should. It takes a lot of faith and courage to make it through life and recover from all those bumps and scrapes it will inevitably throw at you. Since I was much younger I think I have always had sort of a plan for my life and what I wanted it to be. It wasn't until these past few months that my plan wasn't necessarily God's plan for my life. It wasn't until life had to smack me straight across the face once again for God to get my attention.
On my plane rides to Seattle to visit my sister I had been reading Sun Stand Still by Steven Furtick (I absolutely recommend it) and I came across something so radical to be that I had to stop and pause. Furtick goes on to tell the story of Jonathan and that although he did know entirely what was going he believed that perhaps God would help them through the battle. Perhaps? Really? Wow. Then Furtick followed that with "Instead of letting their fear disable their dreams, they start increasing their capacity for faith. They act on the part of God's direction they do understand, and they leave the rest up to him." It hit me right then. Square across the face. I realized that I needed to fully follow God, not any of this wishy-washy  stuff. But that my heart and mind was fully submitted to God's authority and everything else came second. I had realized that my wants of being a doctor when I first started school was more of a positional standing for myself. So that I may say "hey look what I did" at the end of all of it. Now I fully commit myself and my will to God and his own plan for my life.
Now, I'm not saying that I'm not scared or afraid of what that might mean. I know that there will be sacrifices that I must make, obstacles to jump over, and hurdles to plow through. But I also know that it is by God's grace that I was given gifts and opportunities. Without using them it's like leaving an unopened present at your birthday party. "Activating your faith to realize God's vision for your life involves a surcharge of sacrifice."-Sun Stand Still. I want to be used to make an impact in this world today, to be used in ways others think impossible or unable to be reached. I want to make a difference in the unreachable or the once unteachable. I want to be used in this world enough to make an impact for someone else's life to be forever changed.